monday blues

i've never been hit so hard by monday blues before. i woke up dreading going to JW for SOT. (*and all you religious pharisees narrow your eyes*) i nearly wanted to just go back to sleep and take MC. i didn't even have the energy to rush and attempt to not be late. i was very annoyed at everybody during session 1. thank god for friends. after sitting with ai, jo and lou during second session i felt so much better. then monday blues slowly disappeared. what's wrong with me man. i feel like such a lousy SOT student. (*and all you religious pharisees widen your eyes*) i think it is like what Bobby said. my heart is not pure. (*and all you religious pharisees open your mouths*) my heart is tainted with worries, fears and troubles. ai, you were right too. there are things i need to settle with God. i need to rid all these things for Matt 5:8. God, won't you save me from myself?