of frowns and headaches and entanglements

i keep finding myself frowning and being "tormented" (sensitive word esp during Pst Mike Week) by the million and one things i need to do every day. its like in my mind there's this swirl of words and each string of words are the things i need to do. they just float around my mind and entangles up and becomes like a messed up ball of knitting wool. rolling bigger and bigger. and 3/4 of the day when i'm on the train, bus, breaks, whenever i'm not doing anything basically, i'd be frowning and thinking about all the things i need to do. i guess this is a huge source of my headaches (besides the huge SLEEP DEBT i've incurred). u know how irritating it is that people keep saying they're very busy and they act very busy and all. that's why i dont really say i'm busy. bcos i feel i don't qualify to be busy yet. but then again i do think i am busy. i need a mental holiday. to get it is to be much more productive so that before the strings of words entangles up, that these strings of words should be removed from the whirlpool of to-dos. i must not be so obligating anymore. i keep not wanting to let people down that i just keep agreeing to stuff. and at the end of the day, they are all happy and i'm not really that happy. i just feel more strings added to the whirlpool. haix. anyhow, just let this coming week past quick quick quick. its like everyday there's a chunk of something i have to attend to. mon: work tues: tuition,BS wed: work + orientation camp stuff thurs: orientation camp fri: tuition (and that is after a whole night of activities i.e NO SLEEP) and really. on top of all these, there's always the chorus board scheduling woes i battle with. oh SOT assignments too. i hope i don't sound like i'm complaining or wat. bcos i truly am not. i just wanna express how truly entangled i feel. and it is not like i'm the don't think alot person. so to add to the headache, are my thoughts. i think alot really. too much for my own good sometimes. nowadays i just look forward to the end of the day. no obligations, end of a day's worth of to-dos, no lugging of heavy bag, no disappointments of ppl pang-sehing you, no dozing off at all the wrong places. all the NOs, but sadly my frown still remains. gotta make a conscious effort to relax my face and smile more. end of day also means at least and at last, i can finally be at peace to listen.