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on some days we get ahead of time.

now, it seems to me, i'm behind time in a number of things. 

these days i catch myself thinking:

"i need more shoes. a pair of converse, a pair of dr martens, and a pair of toms."

"i could use more casual dresses." 

"my wallet is so old, it's falling apart. but i like it this way."

"saving is exciting. can't wait to beef up my bank account."

"quit organ, learn guitar & singing? yes, no? i don't know."

"i want to learn tailoring one day and make my own clothes."

"if only i have a boyfriend."

"i want to go home and be in my room."

this past month, kinda developed this habit of saving. little by little, bit by bit, i'm seeing the results. my major expenditure now is food, that which is hard to cut down on. glad that the first two thots have no stronghold over me. i personally can't stand people who blindly spend to follow trends. one should learn to live within one's means. excesses are unhealthy. 

i'm giving myself something to look forward to in the next year. this way i can be more motivated to work hard and give my all till then. need to be hard on myself frm now on. 

慢慢发展 - words of wisdom from bestie in church. smt to keep to bcos the contrary always fails me.

be hard on yourself for things you can control. 
for things you can't, take it a step at a time. 

catch ya'll soon. will miss you. (:    xoxo